here we are back to the reality of the daily routine, drowning in the kingdom of boredom, strugglin in the light for freedom.

[i can't wait for dec 15 to arrive!]

i wonder what you're up to. i can't fathom the intentions but oh, does it matter?

[oh yes! thou shalt maketh the most of time. enjoying life. (: ]

i've been in such a bad mood since this evening that even my old folks were not spared from my wrath.

[i wonder what's wrong with me these days..]

i'm so disappointed in you all.

[selfless acts results in self-suicidal selfishness.]

it's going to be a long day. time for Ex Kingfisher to end.

i asked myself this question lots of time when i have time to myself, alone.

'if one day i could turn back time and head to a particular moment in time, which would it be?'

there are so many things in life i've missed and so many stuffs that i've put off or procrastinate until it comes to a point whereby its too late to even start mending it. time has passed by so quickly and as we walk along and struggle to keep up with the pace, we somehow managed to lose ourselves and overlooked the things that should have been prioritised way higher than before.

thus far, i've not regretted whatever that was done by me in the past. i just missed the times where we had control over our time and do whatever we want as we wished. everyone's moving so fast in their life now that sometimes, i don't know anyone anymore. things have changed, times have changed, people most certainly has changed.

all i want is to go back to the past,
way way back.

[and this,
is how the paper tower crumbles down.]

Juwita Suwito - Breath Again

Have you ever wondered how it feels when its all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start a new
Never knowing where you're going
When you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now i just close my eyes and say

*i just want to breath again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little, live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the wars of yesterday
Maybe if i hope a little, try a little more
I'll breath again

Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still moves on
With a bit of luck
It's a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away
Don't want to live life's replay

*i just want to breath again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little, live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the wars of yesterday
Maybe if i hope a little, try a little more
I'll breath again

Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn

*i just want to breath again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little, live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the wars of yesterday
Maybe if i hope a little, try a little more
I'll breath again

it's not as if i'm asking you to even do anything or fork out a single cent. you can't even think in my shoes. to think i did so much in the past for you. this is how i'm getting paid back. when i needed support, you do just that to piss me off. job well done.

[sighs. call me a loser. i still miss you so.. ]